Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Couldn't Stay Away

My prep team had the night off

Tonight I started back into meditation.  It had been about 6 months since last my rear graced the rather expensive cushion I purchased last year (for a class).  Since then, I've had two clean-ish scans, months of anxiety and worry, sleepless nights, chest discomfort, a racing heart, and fatigue.  Perhaps it's time to get back on it.

I made it a whole 16 minutes in silence tonight before I was bursting with ideas that I had to write down before letting them slip away (I felt a little like Jerry Seinfeld in that episode when woke up in the middle of the night with a joke idea and scribbled it illegibly on the notepad next to his bed).  I jumped up, full of vim and vigor, to run to the computer.

You see, since I made the content of Bump In The Road (the first blog) private due to a hopeful publishing project I am working on, I have felt a little creatively discombobulated.  What I didn't realize was that the blog was a safe place for me to work things out - the muddled thoughts circulating during all hours would suddenly rise to the surface, with crystal clarity for me to articulate.  Even if I had unanswerable questions, I always felt better asking them here, because what I discovered was that lots and lots of people were unanswering those same questions in their daily lives, too.

So I'm back.  We have some catching up to do - I feel like it's been ages.  I have some questions, some suggestions, from time to time a few complaints and I also like to voice my opinions.  This chapter may prove even more absurd and looney-lu than the first.

Please stick around for the woes of trying to live a healthy life after the big C has come and gone.

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